Shade

I never thought I could hate someone with the same amount of passion that I loved them with...but I do.

How did I get into this position I am in. You see what you are doing to me made me have to shout it out.

You turned out to be the person you promised you would never be. Now tell me, did it make you feel better after doing it. How could you put me down while you are pulling yourself up? You made me look bad just to make yourself look good. I don't think your Jesus would approve of that. 

I don't know about this twisted game you are playing but I can play it better than you. Your mind is so weak, just a little shake and I could see you break. 

Was it me coz you had me believing all that shit that you never really mean. I must admit. You got me goin there.  

I was just wondering when you kneel in front of Jesus and look back at the things you are doing, does it make you shake even a little?

Whatever works for you, just do you and when I do me, just let me be. Stop telling me how I'm gonna be. 

I'm not gonna lie. Right now, I so fucking hate you.

Mean Comments

I don't really give my fifty shades of crap when it comes to mean comments. I am used to it but tonight I am so bored. I'm wasting my time on this.

1. You were right. It's lose and not loose. I am sorry. English is my fourth language and I am currently learning my fifth. In your case I think you speak three. 1. Very good english. 2 maybe a little spanish. And 3. Major bullsh*t. So please let my mistakes slide.

2. I know what a female genitalia looks like. You don't have to paint me a very nasty picture.

3. I never knew that about koalas. Seriously wombats? I haven't seen one also but I think they are beautiful because God didn't make anything ugly. Well maybe you!

4. If a glider can't carry my weight maybe it's a cheap glider. With my body, nothing should come cheap right?

5. Thank you for your contribution on how to put out fire. Did you learn that at home or in school? You deserve a Nobel prize. Very smart I never thought about it til you point it out.

6. You really know a lot of animals. You must be one hell of an animal yourself. BTW, my niece thinks I'm a whale so I would take walrus as a compliment coz it is much smaller.

7. The last time I checked, beauty had no weight limit and that number on the scale tells how better my life is compared to those people who are fat shaming me. I'm still fabulous and fat you don't have to remind me by pointing it out. I know I am beautiful.

8. You talked about my mom. Don't worry about her she taught me manners in which your mom failed to teach you. If you are here I will give you 5 thousand dollars. Maybe you can go to a high class  school maybe there they can teach you what you didn't learn at home: GOOD MANNERS.

9. You may have better body than me. You may speak/know english better than me but deep inside this 10 layers of fat is a far more better person than you. 

Get a life. Thank you!

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Pre-Valentine Dramz: Remix

It felt like 2010 all over again, where I felt like shyet. Come on what did I miss the last time? How did I let someone treat me like this again. I thought we are friends.

I know we are over before this all happened but grrrrr. I guess I wasn't really over you. So here I am feeling mopey and miserable on the corner. I felt like a total loser for even posting this.

So this is my happily never after. A love I kept inside of me for so long. I know I deserve this for never learning anything from the past. I deserve every teardrop that falls tonight coz tomorrow I know I'll be alright and things will turn out right.

What Goes Around Really Comes Back Around

I always thought that there will come a day where all the mistakes that I've made would bring me to a better place that I have always wanted. Right now, my life doesn't seem so bad. I had always been dreaming about this day since the day he went away. I remember in the beginning I was very insecure pathetic and foolish. I stumbled in my own with no one to hold.

I now realized that there was nothing to regret in my life. Even if my past was full of hurt. Even if there are a lot of people trying to stop my game, I still managed to make my own name. People had been talking about something made out of there ass. I just don't know what's the deal with all the talking behind my back. I thought I was so mean but maybe I had to redefine myself. Maybe I got something you wished you have. 

It's so funny seeing you coming to me begging for my attention and forgiveness. Sweetie maybe you thought you had me figured out but I ain't coming around. I had forgiven you a long time ago but it doesn't mean we had to be friends again. 

Life had flipped 180 on us and got you shootin hate all over the place. It doesn't make you look cool though. It made people hate you instead just so you know.