Taking that Leap of Faith

Monday, February 23, 2015

One of the hardest decision in life is LETTING GO. Whether it's anger, guilt, love, loss or betrayal. Change is never easy. We fight to hold on and we fight to let go. There is no reset button in life. You can't take anything back and you can't undo anything. All of your actions had consequence and the things you say and do today will have a lasting impact on the rest of your life. You have to understand that and you have to be aware of it while making decisions. Trust your intuition. You don't need to explain or justify your feelings to anyone. At times you have to defy logic. Your decisions don't have to make sense. Making a big life change is SCARY. but you know what's Scarier? REGRETS.
Taking that leap of FAITH!

Birthday and Baby Shower

Sunday, February 22, 2015



Tomorrow we will be welcoming baby no.2, and I can't be there because I am scared. 

Happy Birthday Tan. Always remember that I will always be here for you and your growing family. 

My Crew

Friday, February 20, 2015


Sometimes they could be sneaky but I love em to death

Making Decisions

Tuesday, February 17, 2015


Today, I made a decision. Probably the hardest I ever made. It involves every aspect of my life. As a person. As a human being. 


The Backstory:

Well, if you don't know me. I don't let anybody get close as any normal person would. I always had these walls up. Even at work. I don't consider everyone as my friend. Yes we all get along just fine but again, my walls are always up. 

There was this someone, let's just call him Gee. That's the nickname I gave him. I always have special names for my friends that Im the only one calling them. (There's Garutay, lablab, baby girl, true love, first live, baby boy) yeah Im weird like that. He calls me supervisor.

He bacame one of the people I trust, not only with my life but with my parents' as well. We hang, we laugh and we whine about life together. He was really cool and all. When something went wrong, I always go out of my way just to make sure he is okay. 

Few months went by and we were okay. It was exactly a month ago when everything went crumbling down. He shut me out of his life. We stopped everything we used to do. He dropped me off like a hot potato and pushed me into the drain. HE WALKED OUT, I was LEFT OUT. 

He even sold me out on facebook. He posted about people from work were talking about him seeing someone. I tried reaching out to him but instead he posted to mind our own business and to go to the gym. It doesn't need rocket science to figure this one out. I know it was about me. 

Just kept my distance and stay silent because I don't want to hurt him for the things that I might say. 

Last Saturday, It was my last straw. I went berserk and walked out. 


This whole thing made me question myself. It gives me self doubt. It made me question  the fact that I can't make friends (in the real sense of the word). All I understand is, I have ISSUES. All this, I blame myself to. I felt like a nutcase. 

I know we said sorry to each other. I am really sorry for the things that I have put you through. I'M SO SORRY I AM DIFFICULT. 



I would like to go back to where we were but things changed and that's just the way it is. This time I think you were wrong. YOU ARE NOT LETTING GO. You are giving up but it's okay. because this time I know where I stand. I KNOW WHERE TO GO.

Valentine's Day

Sunday, February 08, 2015

The day I really don't like
Bacause I got hurt by Mike
He used to be my sunshine
But deep inside he cant be mine

1,2,3,4,5
Counting the days I have to survive
6,7,8,9,10
Then came a long Ben

He showed me things I've been missing
Everytime me and him are kissing
He told me I will be okay
Each time I got a bouquet

But that didn't last long
because everything went wrong
He broke my heart
well that's just the start.

Everyday I have to be a clown
People don't have to see me frown
But every night
I hug my pillow tight.

I know one day
in someone's arms I lay.
I'm gonna be happy
and I don't have to be sappy.


 

Facebook Brawls

Saturday, February 07, 2015

I knew he was gonna put it on facebook. Social Media nowadays had become an avenue for people to express their feelings and thoughts. But spilling your own tea on facebook is another story. I was wondering whatever happened to talkin shit out and whatever happened to our friendship. I was takin aback when a workmate of mine told me that one of my very close friend posted shit about me on FB. At first, I told myself not to care but then the other side of me is saying that I SHOULD. We are friends and friends talk when there's something wrong.

How did this thing turned out to be so evil. You go preaching about GOD and spreading hate a long the way. This doesn't make sense to me.

If you really didn't care, you wouldn't wanna share. You go tellin everybody just how you feel. I am posting this because I care. I care so much to wonder what is happening to you.

I hope one day you will realize that you are hurting people that really cares about you. But for now let's just stop!

To be Honest

Sunday, February 01, 2015

This is how I feel right now. I don't know why but every time I am sick, I just feel like this.