I thought It was Simple but it was Hell Complicated

Monday, December 31, 2012

Everywhere I go. No matter what I do. I still had that memory of you haunting me every night. I don't know. I just can't move on. I really had enough of this drama.  I was just wondering where's that happy ending that you told me about. I thought you never wanted to see me cry. But I guess this is what you were after.

 Now can't you see that you are everything I want. Can't you see right through me how this thing hurts me. You showed me what it's like to live. Now you've showed me ways to die with your big brown eyes.

People of my Year 2012

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

As the year is about to end, I think its about time I came up with the list of people who mattered to me this 2012.



10. The Boys of Ting Ting Official ft Leo Simpleniceguy- Vince Dale, Jason Pangan, Kalvin, Reane, Madix, Nico, Sergz, Niljun and J. I also call them my Boyfriend Collection. You guys are the best thing that ever happened to me. Thank you for the laughs, and the times we have shared. I really appreciate it. I know that you guys had a lot of games in your mind, just remember not to get caught up with your feelings coz that's when things get ugly.

The K-Girls- Regine Lepon, Agnes Oliamot, Christina Cassandra Velez- Thank you girls for riding with me in this Joyride we call life.You guys are one of the people who could keep up with all the crazy in me. When I do something out of this world, I know that you guys would come closer and jump right in. Always ready to have fun. Thank you for that.


Bedroom Selections

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

This is what we do when we are bored at home in our bedroom. We watch a video on youtube and try to follow the dance moves. This is a cover of a cover. Most of the choreography were from Ian Eastwood and Brian Puspos. The songs  belong to their proper owners. I take no credit to them. Thank you.


Madixlej Escolar
Snoop Dogg- Drop it like its Hot. Freestyle 


New Boyz- Freak my Sh*t




Jayson "tingting" Agunod

Chris Brown- Wet the Bed as Choreographed by Brian Puspos

Justin Bieber- Fall as Performed by Ian Eastwood

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What the Eff

Saturday, December 22, 2012



Just putting it out there.. A lot of you was asking if I am in relationship with Jayson Agunod. Hell no! I am in no way connected to him as his lover nor his benefactor. TO be perfectly honest I see him as a close friend and nothing beyond that. I am uploading his pictures here on FB or anywhere else in the web coz he brings a lot of traffic on my webpage. hahahaha. So yeah.. Stop asking me silly questions or I will cyberbully you.. consider yourself warned... THANK YOU


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I Don't Do Drugs

J
Nico
Eane
Sergz
Me

So I invited my friends on a late night dinner in a pub. Nothin felt as good when you are with the people you care about and people you are comfortable with. I really had fun with them until a joke was thrown at me like a meteorite.

I just found it off and out of line. I know that he never meant what he said but it got me like a knife stabbing right through my heart. It brings all the pain from the past and laid it all in front of me like all the items on sale.  All my life I had been running away from this demon but it keeps on chasing me. 

I think its about time I talk about it. Maybe by talking about it would ease up  the pain I had been hiding since I was 9. My brother was/is a drug addict. Though he seems to be sober now coz he just got out of rehab. Because of it, I blamed him for all the things that happened within our family. I blamed him because I never get to have the things they had when they were about my age. I blamed him because I felt like I was robbed off my childhood and forced to be an adult. At some point I never understand the situation. I had a very wild high school life. I was doing all the bad things just to get my parents attention. I almost got expelled. Sometimes I asked myself questions to the things that happened but I felt like the answers were not for me. I still don't know. 

I think that this is the reason why I get easily attached to people who gives me the attention and I always end up being hurt when the attention runs out. Believe me. The pain is real!


So yeah! I just wanna put it out there. I hangout with people who do drugs because they give me the attention that I want and not some other things. I DON'T DO DRUGS. I NEVER WAS. I NEVER WILL.
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